Single mom

There are days I let the single mom part of my life just overwhelm me.  I don't realize it until I am in a bad mood and everything just gets to me.  I hate that I don't know how to do certain things that I have been taught is a man's job, but when I am just a single mom it makes things harder for me.  I need lights in my kitchen and I have asked my office mgr to have them replaced and its still not done.  I am upset because I can do it but don't have the stuff to do it.  I need to have my vehicle checked and I don't know who to trust.  I go into a repair shop with no ring and kids and they think "easy target."  I hate that and plus I don't have a male friend that can assist me there.  I so want better for my kids than I had, but I am in the same boat my mom was in when we were growing up, but instead of 5 kids I have 2. 

I get no extra money for my kids.  The state says I make to much to get any kid of help so where do I go and what do I do, but let my kid be without.  I have to balance even milk into my everyday budget.  That is not right.  I got 5 weeks of child support and guess what I am now required to pay half of that back because I had public assistance when my son was born.  I hate the system.  I can apply for his disability and right now I think that I am going to have too.  I don't know what else to do. 

Single mom stinks.  I can see why God created two people to make a family.  It is not  a one person job.