Music

Every hear a song that just says in your head for days at time and you just think its a new song, but found out its old.  I have found that song.  I was watching Gray's Anatomy the other and the song "The Story" just found something inside of me that keeps making me thing of those lyrics. 

If someone knew the "me" of the past few years they would probably understand alot about me now.  What my children have been through and what I have endured is not the easy life that we were suppose to have. 

I was married, but I was not happily married and plus he was a liar to not only himself, but to everyone around him.  He has so many people fooled and I really think he had fooled himself.  He even had his own mother fooled.  I look back and I see all the signs, why didn't I see them then and before we got hurt the way we did. 

I lost my whole world in a matter of days....7 of them to be exact.  I was fired from my job on October 31st, but was told that I could work out the remainder of th week, but why.  Plus my own boss couldn't even hire me, she let the human resources lady do it for her and they lied to me.  Told me I had a job in another department, but they canceled that.  I just wanted to scream and that is why I said F*** it all and not go back to rest of the week.  I went straight to the employment agencies and went from there.  I got a job working for Goodwill as a temp during their sales peak for the holiday season, but I knew that wouldn't last.  It was less than what I was making and I was the only one working so I was desperate for work. 

November 7, 2007, my children were taken away from me by DHS and the police and my ex-husband was arrested for child abuse on my oldest son.  I was looking at being charged for "failure to protect."  I was lost.  I had no idea where to go or who to go too, but Traci was there and helped me get through all the times, but no one was there for during my court appearances and I think that was God's way of telling me that I could do this and I was do this is alone. 

"So all the lines across my face tells you the story of who I am so many stories of where I've been and how I got to where I am"

I will share more later.